Every book of the Bible is a repetition of Genesis God's children go straight a little by little over time we give all power and all control over our lives to others and then use the power we give them to control and oppress us for their own personal gains and interest until it's so bad we are looking at being eradicated or not existed or to a point that if God didn't save us we would perish he's one of the first things he showed me when I asked why and how how do we keep getting ourselves out of loving caring hands and putting ourselves in these positions and I was made to understand and the answer is to realize that I should be asking myself and wake up call no answer just Rose to the surface connect slow down and connect and be humble be sincere be who he made you to be and I finally free when I when I forget I put off worldly thinking material or other perceived necessity connecting horse becomes from within a natural to my feelings true God given feelings joy peace love I wish you the same for everyone that mechanical or formalistic it's my authenticity that matters most and just like God has his signature but he's making himself very aware of you I should be feeling an overflow of those emotions manifesting recreating the moment of enlightenment Lovejoy hope dependence Trust Unity and Thanksgiving to God just you and God all the stuff that caused the previous or current trial doesn't exist I was advised of this as well before it happened and I don't know if that's written perfectly to come across as if I'm just being negligent but I have to add there's been absolute extreme opposition to everything I've Been Told constant physical verbal psychological literal torture it's keeping me from that it is not my own these are real these are actual human beings in my family around me that I don't know who they are they change right in front of me it's it's the only way I can explain it is it's like the Twilight Zone stuff so it's not intentional so I'm supposed to remember to slow down there's no such thing as time in God's existence there is it is meaning is exactly what it is everything it is it's how we will make it be if they could be is just be living in the moment just be in the moment