I perceived assumed you gave up on me abandoned me couldn't imagine you couldn't imagine you being as real as you are to me allowing or letting that happen in my mind I thought it was your idea by your design and Punishment whatever word I use works because it was all the deals it was obviously my choice reception of my choice was forced in almost every decision I made either way I'm still left in a position away from Injustice poured out on me my credibility and my daughter still taken away and in a way and I can't comprehend it is happening so I said we have to still have some normalcy some level of Justice and maybe it's gone but that's another reason I blamed you I'm in this scenario With or Without You but I doubt you this last few days it's because I'm judging your level of involvement as if he would do it he would you're a human does or across this line or that line but did I can't understand how you are going to help me so I can't judge no action is in action on your part and I'm sorry I did that I did an internal panic and it's hard it's really really hard thank you and thank you for letting me remember that my biggest life lessons have been through the hardest challenges and things I hate most teach me the most